New Year Resolution!

You have probably already read my previous post about how anal I am, well this year I am going to try and relax more. I am not going to see my house as a chore, but as a relaxing place to spend time with my family. I will learn that the dishes in the sink are not as important as time with eachother and if it doesnt get done then when others want to do it, I will help. I will let laundry go and do it as needed. I will take more time to sit down and watch movies and play games with the kids and hubby. I am going to try and not yell and scream, but be more patient with my children and not take so much to heart. I am going to try to not be the nagging wife who wants everything done now at this very moment. If I dont want to do it and the husband doesnt want to do it, I am going to pay to have it done, that way it doesnt weigh on either of us! This is my new year resolution, this year to be lazier!!!! Happy New Year!

What is my deal?

This past month I have felt so down and exhausted, I am going through crying spells, freakin out spells, madness spells, I don't know what is wrong. I went to finally see the nurse here at work and she said that I am on the max dose for my anti depressants so no help there, also I have been taking some vitamin D lately to see if that would help and it hasen't. I just feel like I am alone, even though I am surrounded by people that I love and I know love me. I haven't felt like this since 5 or 6 yrs ago when I had a breakdown and trying to find out which kind of meds fit me personally. I feel that I am just a naggin wife and mom, trying to keep everything perfect, and in my perfect world when its not, I go crazy. All I want to do is lay down and cry and sleep, its really affecting me. I try to be happy, I try to keep up with my husband, kids, laundry, cleaning the house, taking down decorations, bills and everything else and its totally not working. I feel like I am doing it all alone, that I am in my own world and it all piles on my shoulders. I know that my husband asks what he can do and I give him stuff, but it just feels like its not on an asap important basis, not like me. When dinner is done, it has to be cleaned up or else its messy and it drives me nuts, if there is stuff on the counters I have to clean them off or else I go crazy, I have to do the laundry thats piled up downstairs (Jaycee asked me this morning why it took me two months, to wash her shirt, I think she exaggerated a little bit, but it is taking me longer. I don't know what to do or how to feel. I feeelllll sssoooo baaadddd!

Wow I can't belive my little girl is 9 today! Happy Birthday Jaycee

My little girl has turned 9 years old today as of 6:36 Am. I don't believe it when I look at her and think , it was just yesterday that she was born and I was holding her in my arms. Now she is so big she tries to give me piggy back rides. Every year it seems that it goes by so fast and she gets another year older. Why can't they stay small? They are so cute, they love to be held, kissed, you can dress them the way you like, you can do their hair, you can watch them learn and grow and their first word, the first time they crawl or walk. I miss all of these things. I told her one day that I was going to give her a pill that makes her stay small, and she just laughed at me, because she wants to be big. She wants to play with the older girls, she wants to drive, and go out (not with boys of course they are still yucky), but she wants to do all the things adults can do and if she can't or we won't let her she says its not fair. She doesn't understand that its not so fun to grow up. What is so much fun about being a grown up? You have to do everything for yourself, you have to work (school is so much more fun), you get to play, you still get to have toys and games, and you have to clean the house, take care of the car, wear make up, ect. Its really not that fun! I want her to be small for a while and just enjoy the things that she has and she gets to do as a kid.

Jaycee is really into Bakugans this year. I think she now has 15 and counting, she has some small, med and large ones. She would really like her room to be bakugan, I told her no way, we went from Hannah Montana to bakugan, I dont think so. She really likes her hair short, no pink or purple clothes, or anything else girlie. I hope its just a phase so that she will one day let me curl her hair, and we can go get our nails done, have pedicures together and shop for cute clothes. I really love the color pink and for her not to like it is really hard.

I do really love to watch how much she does grow and how smart she is. We go to parent teacher conference and the teachers love her. They say she is so good in school and she loves to learn, she also loves to talk (she gets that from her mamma). Her teacher said that she is reading well above her grade level, she is in third grade reading on a fourth grade level. She also can build amazing things with Legos, she got some from Santa this year.
I am so proud of you baby girl, Happy Birthday to you and I am hoping that you grow and learn everyday to be the special person that you are to all of us! We love you!

Christmas is over...

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas this year, I know that my family and I did. The kids got everything and they had such a blast unwrapping presents, it was so much fun. Amaya was more into us letting her play with her stuff, than unwrapping more. She kept telling us hold on mom hold on dad, at one point when we went to my parents, she was so tired of unwrapping gifts that we did it for her. Now Jaycee on the other hand, she loves to just unwrap everything and then see it at the end. It was so nice though to see what everyone got. Rhandie must have been a really good boy this year as well, because Santa made a visit to him too.
We then went from our house to my parents and unwrapped some more gifts, and we got a new pots&pan set. Rhandie is in heaven, and I am very thankful too, because he is the one who cooks. I will upload the picture.
After that we went to Grandma Lornas house and got to spend some time with them. She was so greatful to see Amaya. Jaycee was with her dad at the time, so we stopped by later to see them with her. They enjoy their time with the grandparents. ........
Then it was deffinitly time for a nap, oh how I love those. I think out of the entire family I am the only one who begs for one everyday.
Then we went to my dads moms house (Grandma Kay), it was nice to see the whole family there. All the cousins, brothers, parents, aunts and uncles were all there. We always have so much fun with the fam, and we are so greatful for all of them.

Finally we did make it back home and by that point we were all exhausted. It was so time for bed, so we made it in with a barbie movie and snuggled in bed til the kids passed out all in my bed. I carried them to their own and then passed out myself.
I just wanted to let you all know that you are special to us, and no matter what there is always a place in our house and our hearts for all of you! I am so greatful for my family, and friends, and I am hoping everyone who has lost someone I hope you all feel comfort this holiday season just knowing that they are guardian angels.

Yeah it's Christmas Eve!!

I can't tell you how excited I am for tonight. The girls are totally pumped up and honestly to tell you the truth I am way excited and I know what all the gifts are. I have everything wrapped and ready to go so we can throw them under the tree until tomorrow morning. Tonight we are heading to our Aunts house, then after we will spend some time with my parents and siblings. Rhandie is the only child so my siblings will have to do for him as well. I can't tell you how much we are blessed every year by a wonderful time and all of the family & friends that we get to see. We love you all very much, and are so greatful you are all in our lives. Christmas is nothing with out you all. For my immediate family, I thank God everyday for you all, the health and happiness that we all have is amazing. I am so thankful that I truely have people that really care and matter to us all!! I love you all and from my family to yours Merry Christmas Eve!!!

Oh Christmas, Oh Christmas!

So do you ever think that sometimes you are just losing your mind and things don't seem real? Thats the way its been for the past couple of weeks, time just flew by and before you know it, its almost that day, Christmas Day. Last night there was an earthquake in Magna, and I felt it, no one else in the house felt it, only me. I thought I was dreaming or going insane. This morning I had to jump on the internet to actually see if it was my immagination or if there was indeed an earthquake. Sure enough one did rattle my little house. It wasn't that big, but enough to startle me and made me have dreams about being buried alive. I am thinking if there is another one, forget hiding under the desk or table, I am running like hell outside to get out of the building.
On another note, we did make it to my parents house to make the 4 batches of cookies my mom has to make every year. Ahh so she thought that the kids would love to make them, guess who got stuck doing most of them? Her and I, and I tell you what there is a gazillion of sugar cookies that you have to frost! Thankfully they are finally done, but now is the other hard part. My dad loves eggrolls that my hubby makes, so tonight what are we doing you might ask? Thats right rolling eggrolls, do I have any volunteers? Well whatever makes dad happy will work for me. I am hoping to get into bed before 10 tonight and get some quality rest, we will see if that happen. Husband, mother in law and the girls went to the oriental store to get all of the stuff, while in the mean time mom is stuck at work til 6. I haven't even taken the girls to see Santa, what a bad mom. I asked the hubby today if he would drop by the mall so we would at least have a picture of them with Santa this year. We will see what happens with that. I will post some pictures of the kids by my parents tree later tonight. Well till tomorrow have a safe and wonderful day and be careful out there its a madhouse!

Just trying out this blogging thing.....

I have seen some awesome blogs lately and decided to try one for myself and the fam. We will see how this works out! I wanted to start with something the family around the world can read and help the be connected with whats going on in our life.
First things first, setting this up. Yeah its going to be tricky so be patient with me. I am hoping to blog frequently so that you all know what is going on in the Ubans lives.

Okay so the second thing just a little bit about us. We are a family of 4, this includes Husband Rhandie, Wife Shari and then our two beautiful girls Jaycee, and Amaya. Jaycee is 8 almost 9, Amaya is 3 and I won't tell you how old the Wife and Husband are (we are staying 21 forever). We have a beautiful house, and some fish. We enjoy spending time with eachother and hanging out at friends and families houses. We also live in the beautiful state of Utah, so the mountains are another favorite, especially in the summer. Its too cold outside so its not really fun, you can say we are hibernating. Rhandie and I love to ride motorcyles in the summer when is warm, and camping (although we haven't done this for a while, maybe next summer). We as a family also like to visit Idaho and see some of our close relatives there. They have some hot pools in lava hot springs which is awesome in the winter and in the summer we go to the Lava swimming pools and hang out. IF you have never been you are really missing out!

We have been really busy right now due to Christmas, its going to be so much fun this year watching the girls open their gifts. Amaya is at the point now that she understands Christmas, and is not so good about secrets yet. Ask a kid if you really want to know the truth or if they know a secret they will tell you. Its okay we just laugh and know that she will learn.
Jaycee right now is really getting into the more expensive things. She loves the DS, electronics and the computer. They have this game called the moshi monsters and its a big hit. The whole family has one and everyday we take turns playing this game. Yeah I know its for kids, but hey whatever keeps us younger a little longer I will take.
Well better get back to work and I will hopefully update some pictures within the next few days.